Pins #97 -#99:Look Deep* and Follow Your Passion
I have written and re-written this post in my mind at least 100 times and actually almost posted a version of it around Pin #24 but I didn’t like the way it turned out. I think it is actually a bit more fitting that it come now, at the end of this 100 pin project. I really hope I can convey my point of view without sounding like a complete idiot. The bottom line to the rambling that is sure to happen here is this: I want my children to have a passion for life and doing what they love. I need to make sure I model that for them. They will easily see how passionate I am about being a great mom – but I also need to show them more.
These two ‘word’ pins really spoke to me. I first saw pin #97 (above) and felt like: YES! Those are words to live by, they so describe my feelings, I love it. Right away I also thought of my husband and his passions, soccer, aviation, fatherhood. I smiled thinking of how Luca knew about Daddy’s passion of airplanes and understood that as a concept far before understanding the concept of ‘going to work, having job, earning money.’ (Still a concept that is hard to fully grasp for a 5 year old I think). Luca knew at age 1 1/2 when he saw the Boeing 787 test flights fly over our house – that was ‘Daddy’s Plane.’ (Sometimes Andrew was even on it..super cool). I knew my pre-baby career-girl identity is far gone, and a part of me my kids will not know anytime soon, or maybe never. I know they witness my passion about being a parent to them everyday, but it is important to me that is not the ONLY thing they see that I’m passionate about. Then, I realized I couldn’t really pinpoint one thing that was ‘my something.’ I have dabbled at lots of little things but not really great at any one thing. Then, I saw pin #98 (below) and realized I was looking for my ‘some THING’ rather than ‘something.’ Lost yet?? Well, I was looking to put a ‘key word searchable’ label on my ‘passion.’ But what I realized was it is not a thing, a word, one specific hobby that is my passion.
In my life I’ve been in band (saxophone), choir, school newspaper and yearbook. I spent my senior year with the distinguished title of ‘dark room manager’, was an on-air personality for my high school news station. As a working grown up I created ad campaigns for sports teams, designed game entertainment for Division 1 NCAA Football, Basketball and a handful of other sports. Created sports business related educational programming for high school kids, designed numerous corporate events for NBA Basetlball patrons and made it possible for no less than 1200 kids to perform (singing, dancing, instrument playing) on the court during a Seattle Sonics game. As a young-married-chick-with-no kids-homeowner, I learned a lot about gardening, a little about decorating and tons about remodeling! (We renovated our 1925 house, completed our basement and added about 40% finished square footage to the house. We designed the space together, Andrew drew up the plans. It was tons of work but one of the most fun and rewarding projects I’ve ever gotten to do).
Then we became parents. Andrew went back to his passion/work. The Seattle SuperSonics moved to Oklahoma City and there was huge new world of love that opened up with baby Luca, but along with it a big hole where my creativity used to go. Of course, there was tons of new things to learn about being a parent, raising a great kid, and I do all those things on a daily basis. But I needed something that was just for me. We all know becoming a mother means to nurture others – but no one talks about how you also need to need to nurture yourself. In fact, a lot of people, and sadly, other women, pass judgement on Moms who take time to nurture themselves. I don’t want to model that behavior – it is not good for anyone.
I realized early on, I am a person who knows I NEED a creative outlet to achieve (or strive for) balance in my life. Everything I listed above about my pre-kid life included the words: created, designed or learned. So there you have it. My passion is to create, design and learn. This blog allowed me to do ALL these things. I started this blog to hold my self accountable for something that was just for me. While, of course, many of the pins benefit my family and kids especially, but this blog, is just for me and an outlet for my passion.
Shew!! Ok – deep thoughts over. This isn’t rocket science, I know I’m not alone with these feelings and thoughts. Hello, why do you think there are so many Mom-blogs out there??? Hopefully I’m not coming across as a complete idiot. It is good to evaluate yourself time and again and check in on what keeps you in balance….and this, was my check in. As Flavor-Flav said, “You bedda check yo self before you wreck yo self.” Wise words my friend.
In the almost 5 years as a Mama I’ve filled my creative outlet hole in a few ways. I’ve learned or relearned to sew (a little), sort of learned some quilting, to sort of play the ukulele, put on an annual 5K to raise money for LLS with two of my best girlfriends (www.runwithabe.com), ran a few half marathons for chairty, ALMOST completed 100 pins off of Pinterest and as you all have witnessed learned (or relearned) a little about photography. My kids are pretty aware of this passion, that is for sure as I take pics of them daily. What I love is that Luca is totally interested in my camera. Since it is the Hyundai of cameras in the DSLR world….(the total base model…looking to upgrade to at least a ‘Camry’ one day), I let him have a chance to take supervised photos. I’ve included some of his shots below. Not half bad if you ask me…some of my favorite pictures of the year actually.
ALL PHOTOS BELOW BY LUCA:
99 down 1 to go!!!!!!!!!!
*”Look Deep” is short for ‘Look Deep Inside” which is a catch phase we say in our family (thanks to the originator, my bro-in-law who loves to make up words or phrases that become part of our language!). It is used in a way such as: if you’re being a jerk about something, you may get told to “Look Deep.” As in, ‘check yo self before you wreck yo self,’ or ‘seriously, don’t be such a jerk’. Or if you wake up after a night of staying up too late, etc. In the morning you may be asked “are you looking deep right now?” It is very complicated, yet fun and funny.